Thursday, March 15, 2007
HI IM SHERYAN AND I SUCK.
Uh-oh ppl block your eyes cause im in a complainy mood.
Argh i duno why i just cant get figure 3 for night safari right!!! Dun even talk abt matching jh's tone or volume. I cant even bloody
count properly. And my tuning was like-what tuning? Wayy off. Sheesh. I really hated myself tday man. For making the section play the same part over and over again because of my mistakes. For making shermin and jh take me so many times their hands hurt frm clapping the beat too many times. Im sorry. I suck so bad i wonder why the school even accepted my appeal. How can i contribute to the band when i sound worse than a primary school kid? Andandand internal combustion. I practised for three mths alr STILL cant play bars 279-282 properly. Like wth is wrong with me???? Its not like i dint practise. I am just stupid, useless and retarded. I shld just shrivel up and die now. Thats what talentless jellyfish are supposed to do, right?
Went back to crescent with xiangyin. Enjoyed her company, but still felt damn extra. ): Now i rlly feel outta the sch.
The holidays are almost over and i've yet to start on my huge pile of hmk. Cheers. :/
i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck I SUCK.
I need a hug ):
flow - 11:12 PM